Gone with the Wind: 80%

Less than 200 pages to go!

I feel very accomplished but I love the story so much that I wish it were several more thousands of pages. I love the style of writing, the characters, the details and the way that everything is connected. Scarlett ended up in Atlanta begging Rhett for money, trying to sell herself, and eventually got married to Frank Kennedy because he had money. She then bought a couple of sawmills and ran them to make money. One day on the way to one of the mills, she got attacked and Frank ended up dead trying to avenge the attack as part of the Ku Klux Klan. Scarlett was sorry, not that she had killed Frank (indirectly), but that she was going to hell. Then Rhett proposed to her while Frank was dead in the parlor. Ridiculous.

I LOVE THIS BOOK!!!! I'm sad I only have a couple hundred pages to go :(

There's not much to say about this section, although I was drawing parallels between Scarlett and Gatsby in terms of getting a plan to make money and doing anything to make that happen. Both, now that I think about it, are in love with someone who is married. But Scarlett carries through with her goal and having known hunger never wants to be without money.

However, I am not sure why she is blaming herself so much for Frank's death. While I understand that she disobeyed him when he asked her to stop going out to the mills because it was unsafe. Scarlett, in turn, talked to Frank to make sure he was not part of the Klan. Therefore, both disobeyed the requests of the other, and both got hurt for it. Unfortunately Frank didn't make it out of his attack alive, but in my opinion it was not solely Scarlett's fault that he had been killed. If he had listened to Scarlett, he would not have been involved in the Klan. At the same time, if Scarlett had not visited the mill, she wouldn't have been attacked. Perhaps being a gentleman, Frank had to seek revenge, but Scarlett did not want that either; on the evening of her attack she wanted Frank to stay home and comfort her. Therefore, I believe Frank's death is just as much Frank's fault as Scarlett's.

I'll be honest. I have seen the movie start to finish at least twice, but have watched the first half and the last 5 minutes many times. Therefore, the ending piece is a little fuzzy. I'll watch the movie at some point after finishing the book. I can remember parts from the movie as they happen in the book but I can't remember details much, especially related to the Scarlett and Rhett marriage, which consumes part 5, where I am now in the book. I remember that they lived richly, had a child who died, Rhett got drunk and pushed Scarlett down the stairs, and of course the "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn." Other than that, I can't say I remember much about them as a couple.

That being said, here's my prediction. Rhett and Scarlett are two people who are not well respected or received in Atlanta, mostly because they have taken opportunities that were given to them that others did not take. Displeasure with Scarlett also has to do with the fact that she is a woman doing work for men, showing herself in pregnancy, etc. (That whole bit really annoys me, not that I would consider myself a feminist by any means, but people know about sex and that sex leads to babies and that pregnancy happens and leads to women the size of trucks, so....what is the big deal? It happens to everyone, why can't they go shopping or for a walk? And men have to be like, "Oh, gee, Mrs. So-and-so, what a surprise, a baby!" while thinking in their head like 'oh, I haven't seen her in a while, she must be knocked up!' What's the big deal? But that's besides the point.) and that she is being 'indecent.' They both don't care about their reputations or what people think, but both are concerned with their appearances, having luxurious things, etc. So, based on that, their marriage will be more like a facade. Their relationship, besides being about passion, is more of a love-hate relationship, which, when combined with passion can only end badly. I'm thinking they will live some time with luxury but at some point Scarlett will have to either give up on Ashley or leave Rhett altogether for her to be happy (We all know what happens in the end, who are we kidding?). Thinking back, I can't remember a time when Scarlett was ever truly happy. Even in the very beginning she was pining for Ashley and never did she get her chance.

Yeah, so, a third unhappy marriage, but this more fun than the other two. I'm interested to see if Scarlett ends up in Atlanta, seeing as how she and Rhett are bound to live in the lap of luxury (while Atlanta cleans up and becomes a nice place again, which is inevitable if they live there due to the Scarlett-Atlanta foil). And I want to know what happens to her children Wade and Ella, since they don't exist in the movie.

I have been thinking the whole book about who my favorite character is. IT IS DIFFICULT! I'll elaborate later if I get to it, but I love Scarlett, for as stupid as she seems she actually has some sense except about love. I love Rhett for his frankness, the way he is matter of fact about everything. The third character I love, which I discovered today, is Mammy. There was something she said in the chapter I read today that really struck me. Maybe I'll add it next time, but it was something about even though she is free, she still represents Miss Ellen and she was not going to let Scarlett go off unsupervised and find someone else to raise Ellen's grandchildren. The way Mammy protects the family that she grew up with is a story that often gets lost in the movie and in civil war stories in general. I mean, I grew up in New York (state, not city) so I didn't grow up with the same set of civil war attitudes as those raised in the south, but the message I got was that all slaves hated being slaves and hated their masters and after the emancipation proclamation, all the slaves ran away and came up north to work except for the ones that ended up as sharecroppers. While most of the O'Hara's slaves ran away, and freed slaves were some of the criminals in Atlanta, Mammy, Pork, Dilcey, and Prissy still stayed with the O'Hara's out of loyalty. I was unaware that loyalty of this kind existed in the south between slave and master. My view of slavery pretty accurately matches those of the reported northerners in the book who asked Sam of the bloodhounds and beatings. At the same time, I realize that Mitchell grew up in the south and that her story may be skewed also. Even if slave loyalty was extremely rate, it still draws attention to Mammy as a character and makes me admire her for her devotion to Ellen (who, by the way, represents the old south, thus why she is dead and Scarlett is less like her every day--I love symbolism!)

It's really too bad that Mitchell didn't write more books or a sequel or something--I know there's a sequel but I'm afraid to read it...this book seems so complete (minus the phillipi thing, haven't found out what that is yet) and the writing is so good that if the sequel sucks I'd hate to ruin this book for myself. Currently it may be surpassing even my favorite book, Anna Karenina. We'll have to see with these last 190 pages!

Gone With The Wind: The rock bottom section

After laying Gone With The Wind to rest for a week or so due to vacation and lack of interest for a few days, I'm happy to say that I'm reading it again with a vengeance. Within the past 2 days, I've read 131 pages (which doesn't sound like a lot but that's 65 pages per day while working which I find impressive).

Last I left off in my blog, Scarlett had just disgraced herself at the dance auction. Since then there's been a lot of description of sick/wounded/dying soldiers, how jealous Scarlett is of Melanie, and how Rhett Butler won't be received by the townspeople. The Yankees kept getting closer to Atlanta. Scarlett kissed Ashley before he left after his furlough, as well as Rhett on the night they escape from Atlanta. Rhett joins the army in the eleventh hour. Scarlett, Prissy, Melanie, Wade, and the baby take the road home to Tara, which is miraculously still standing. Scarlett's father is tired and confused, her sisters are sick, her mother is dead, and all the slaves are gone except Pork, Mammy, and Dilcey.

Normally, I am the kind of person who doesn't hold much sympathy for anyone who has screwed up their own life. I can't feel sorry for Scarlett pining for Ashley after so many years because she knows she can't have him. There's no way I'm rooting for that to work out (even disregarding the fact that I love Rhett). However, so many events in Scarlett's life are so incredibly out of her control that I can't help but feel awful for her. There's no food, no medicine, no cotton to sell, no livestock, her father is not who he was, her mother died the day before she returned home, her sisters are sick, she's stuck in her old house that no longer feels much like home with a son she doesn't like and the wife and child of the man she loves. I am pretty sure this is what rock bottom looks like.

And then there's the argument that if it weren't for her promise to Ashley, Scarlett would have returned home already and seen her mother before she died. However, in this scenario, Scarlett probably would have also come down with typhoid and died. The end. Game over. No 600 more pages to read.

I've seen the movie several times and I know what ultimately happens. However, with so many pages left, I'm wondering what the movie may have been leaving out. Surprisingly, though, not much has been cut out at all (except Wade, who hardly appears in the book anyway). We'll have to see about that...

Two things I noticed:
A quote I read today while at work.
"Make him hush. I can't stand it," said Scarlet, taking the horse by the bridle and pulling him to a reluctant start. "Be a little man, Wade, and stop crying or I will come over there and slap you."
Why had God invented children, she thought savagely as she turned her ankle cruelly on the dark road--useless, crying nuisances they were, always demanding care, always in the way. In her exhaustion, there was no room for compassion for the frightened child, trotting by Prissy's side, dragging at her hand and sniffing--only a weariness that she had borne him, only a tired wonder that she had ever married Charles Hamilton."

I'm a nanny. I can relate. I thought it was especially funny that I read it at work during nap time.

Another thing I noticed: As Atlanta declines, so does Scarlett. I mentioned this in my last Gone with the Wind entry. First, Atlanta becomes very busy with soldiers and people as a result of the railroads. Even though there is a war going on, it's still a hubbub of excitement. On the same page, it mentions that Scarlett had never been happier as a result of seeing Ashley. Is it a coincidence that both Scarlett and Atlanta had become more vivacious at the same time and on the same page? Absolutely not. Furthermore, as Atlanta burns, Scarlett falls apart. She calls for Rhett to take them away, and then loses her mind when she is trying to pack. She starts misplacing things around the house, trying to bring good china instead of a sunbonnet and gloves. Furthermore, as they leave Atlanta, which is presumably burning more, Scarlett deteriorates physically, becoming tired, sunburned, and getting blisters on her hands. By the time they reach Tara (note: they are no longer in Atlanta, therefore Scarlett is further physically from Atlanta which is symbolic for her) she is not the Scarlett we first saw at Tara on page 1 (or in my edition, page 3). She has lost the life she knew at Tara, the way of the south, and the life she had been been brought up to live. While Scarlett realizes that as the south changes, so must she (e.g. she drives the carriage by herself, she starts drinking, she slaps Prissy and calls her names) Mammy still clings to the past, telling Scarlett that she should have worn gloves to drive the carriage. I mean, I'm not sure of the importance of gloves, but when your city is burning and enemy soldiers are coming, I'm finding gloves to be the modern day equivalent of making sure you have your license when you're evacuating for a hurricane or something. However, Mammy, having brought up many young girls in the old south, knows no other way and perhaps cannot imagine what Scarlett has been though.

So, this section has seen things go from bad to worse. Perhaps a little more uplifting things are in store? I hope so, how much worse could it get?

I'm also still waiting on the "As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again" part. I don't think I'm there yet....or else I passed it. But to be fair, I have not yet got to a part with Scarlett digging up yams.

The Great Gatsby

Recently I took a road trip to the northeast to visit a couple of friends in med school. Even though I am currently still in the middle of Gone With The Wind, the library did not have that on audiobook (on CD) for my car (and I wasn't about to shell out $50 to Amazon for it either,) I chose another book from the list to listen to for part of the car ride. The Great Gatsby seemed a perfect choice because it was short and because I was somewhat familiar with it. Truth be told, The Great Gatsby is one of those books that falls under the category of "books I was assigned in high school that I read on Sparknotes," along with A Tale of Two Cities, Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man, The Odyssey, Lord of the Flies, Huckleberry Finn, and Pride and Prejudice. This is not to say that I didn't read ANY of these; I usually started with such good intentions of this being the book that I actually finished, but time restraints usually won. Either I was too busy to actually do the reading, or the book was not interesting enough for me to bother finishing. I remember reading most of The Great Gatsby, up to chapter 6 at least. The point of that rant was a) I made it through high school by avoiding classic books, and b) I did not have to pay 100% attention to Gatsby in the car.



So, this being a particularly famous book, and one I remember liking in high school (the parts I read, anyway), I had high expectations for the book which were basically squashed. I found it surprisingly wordy and insignificant, which is ironic because that is the picture of upper class life that the novel paints. While I understand this major theme, I'm not quite sure what to make of it.

What I find most striking about the book is the evolution of Gatsby. He was a poor mid-westerner who one day made up his mind to be rich and did everything he could to achieve his goal. Not everything he did was legal, some was particularly shady, but overall, Gatsby became a wealthy man. Modern day Machiavelli? I'd say so. His rationale was a little shaky (needing to impress Daisy even though she was married) but his efforts were rewarded with money. He threw elaborate parties to impress and lure Daisy in. In the process he lured in many others, but Gatsby seemed uninterested in them, as shown by his removed presence at his parties. I admire his determined nature, but can't help but be bothered by all the emptiness. He did what he did to get Daisy, which ultimately failed, not only when she chose Tom but also when he was shot by Wilson. Gatsby did not want to be rich for himself, although he did seem to enjoy that lifestyle, and I think that's where he went wrong. While money cannot buy happiness, achieving an important goal can bring happiness. In my mind, Gatsby had a worthy goal (even though it involved money) but the reasoning for his goal was what lead him to feeling empty. And while I can admire his do or die nature, I can't help feeling that Gatsby needed some other interests, friendships, and relationships to make his life worthwhile.

"There are only the pursued, the pursuing, the busy, and the tired."

I'm not sure why I like this quote so much. I guess when it comes to relationships, everyone falls into one of these categories, more or less. I also believe you can be in two categories at once. Either you are into someone, or they are into you, or both, which covers pursued and pursuing. I'm not sure if busy refers to people too busy to be in relationships, or people who are currently in relationships, but for now I'll go with both. And the tired I presume are not looking for any sort of relationship, and are perhaps bored or frustrated with that sort of thing. I'm not sure which category I fall into, maybe a mix between pursuing and busy, if that's possible. Maybe I'll do some work in this department and think about it some more. Maybe if I bring this quote up on a date I'll find out if the guy is a book geek like me, haha.

So, thus is my analysis of The Great Gatsby. Next entry will probably be getting up to speed in Gone With The Wind.

Reputation

"Until you've lost your reputation, you never realize what a burden it was or what freedom really is."
--Rhett Butler, while dancing with Scarlett at the charity ball

Rhett Butler is my hero. Even though he is a scoundrel only concerned with money, he always speaks the truth. It doesn't matter whether he will be accepted or not. It doesn't matter whether his ideas are scandalous and not generally liked. When he brought up the fact at the Wilkes' barbecue that there was not a single cannon factory in the south, everyone went berserk. However, he was only bringing up facts (although they fell on deaf ears, clearly).

Scarlett, on the other hand, always cares what people thinks about her. However, she has such an analytic mind, she finds a way to do what people think is acceptable while also looking out for herself. When she flirts with everyone at the barbecue, everyone sees Scarlett's personality when in fact she is trying to make a point to Ashley. She goes to Atlanta for what everyone thinks is her health, but her real motivation is so that she can be with Ashley's family. Then eventually she finagles the reasoning of dancing at the ball to be helping the cause when in fact she just wants to dance and have a good time, and does not feel an ounce of grief for Charles.

This reputation statement, though, shows that Scarlett is about to fall from the good graces of society, as Rhett Butler has done, for doing something socially unacceptable. What society doesn't realize is that Scarlett has already done something unacceptable by marrying someone not for love or practical reasons, but to get closer to another man. She is only in Atlanta for that reason, and wearing black for someone you are not truly mourning is disrespectful as well. However, the people (minus Butler, of course) are unable to see through Scarlett's facade. Basically, Mitchell paints the southern gentlemen, ladies, and belles as ignorant and rash and the character not even received by his own family as having any shard of intelligence. Probably the exception to this would be Ellen O'Hara, but she only shines because she was good at the life she led in the culture of the old south. The post-war climate will not suit her.

There are many other quotes that I have loved but as I am now currently 200 pages into the book it's hard to go back and find them, so from here on out I'll be a little better about updating.

Something I thought was interesting was the description of when Scarlett and Melanie turned in their wedding rings. Scarlett, first, was thankful that she did not have any beautiful jewelry on because then she would have had to follow the norms and donate them to the cause. In essence her "mourning" was a blessing in disguise. However, she did notice that her wedding ring was jewelry and then took it from her finger and threw it onto the pile. Melanie then did the same thing, telling Scarlett that she was so brave (ha! If you only had a brain...). Anyway, Melanie really has to pull the ring off her finger, which shows the kind of attachment she has to her husband that she cannot pull her husband (symbolically through the ring) from her finger, while Scarlett has no problem casting him aside. And you can tell she wants to, because mourning would have given her an out to not donating anything, but she clearly chose to do it.

So, without the thought of Charles lingering around her, and her clear insubordination with the norms of mourning, I'm guessing Scarlett just casts her reputation off and continues her life without regard as to the townspeople's thoughts of her.

Wow. Long tangent. Getting back to the quote though, It's definitely true that reputation can be both a blessing and a curse. If you have a bad reputation, it lingers and there's not much you can do to change it no matter how hard you try. If you have a good reputation, you feel expected to live up to it no matter what you feel like doing. Personally, my reputation (i think, at least) is that I am quiet and I follow the rules, and it's definitely hard to break out of that when so many people know that about me. And once someone has a reputation it's hard to see them outside of that. Lucky for Scarlett, she had a way to break out and ruin her reputation, and win her freedom, as Rhett Butler puts it. Now that it's ruined, Scarlett can do whatsoever she pleases and is no longer confined by the ideas of others. I'll be looking to see whether she speaks her mind a little more too.

Additionally, Scarlett and Atlanta were Christened in the same year, which is, to me at least, as good as Margaret Mitchell screaming from the book "PAY ATTENTION!! SCARLETT AND ATLANTA ARE FOILS!" Anyway, Scarlett visited Atlanta when she was small, back when it was a new town, just developing. It grew quickly and was now the center of trade for the south, connected with many other cities. It is bustling and always busy, but because it is so new it is rough around the edges. Scarlett even says about it when she first arrives, "I'm going to like it here! It's so alive and exciting!" And if that statement doesn't describe the both of them, then lock me up!

I'm only one fifth of the way into this book. At least is it not as tedious for me as Lord of the Rings

it's only when like marries like can there be any happiness

I don't have much time to write (Have to be up before 6 tomorrow, eek!) but I just wanted to document how fabulous I think this book is. I'm already on page 160-something. Already Scarlett is a widow with a small child. They are about to go to the ball to help the Confederacy. Next time I'll put in some quotes (most of which made the movie) that I especially liked and tell why at one point during my reading I discovered that I was exactly like Scarlett (in some respects...I certainly hope I am not like her completely!) As for now, peace out!

Gone With The Wind

FINISHED THE FELLOWSHIP!!! finally....

I think I'm going to continue my pattern of hiatus from LOTR and take a break before I head into "The Two Towers". And by break I actually mean reading over one thousand pages of "Gone With The Wind."

I ordered Gone With The Wind to get free shipping on something I had to order for school, since I knew I was going to be buying it anyway. I've read two chapters so far, and besides being completely racist (but probably historically accurate in that department) it is fantastic. It probably helps that I have seen the movie several times, and really like the story. I'll put in some quotes and noticings in my next entry. For the time being, though, I'll get back to homework and hopefully I'll be able to read a little more tonight.

Hiatus

I am officially on hiatus from this book project due to grad school. It's really a shame, especially since I am mid-LOTR series (30 pages from the end of the first book). I'm hoping that between class and nannying I'll have a little time to finish up the Fellowship. Then it will be only a couple of weeks before I can resume with The Two Towers, which is slightly shorter (yay!) My goal is to finish up this series by the end of summer.

I also have to find a thrilling vacation book to take on the plane with me. Our family vacation is coming up and since we will be flying across the country, I've decided I had better use that time to read a good book. Hopefully something exciting and not something that involves intense concentration (read as: I am not bringing LOTR or War and Peace on vacation with me...and ESPECIALLY not War and Peace because it is heavy). I do have the Life of Pi sitting on my bookshelf waiting for me, so I'll have to preview that one to make sure it'll keep my interest for 5 hours straight, or find a different one from the list.

My friend and I have worked on revising this list to accommodate our own tastes. We've added a few books that we feel should be on the list (I'm not sure how many as of yet) and have decided that if a certain book is REALLY not working, we can move on to another one (read as: I will probably not read Dickens and she will not be reading Steinbeck). I'm still really excited about this even though I a) am burnt out from reading about how kids learn to read and spell, and b) have no time to actually read for pleasure.

See you July 1st, when class is over!